Week 67 - 116.0
Week 68 - 116.2
Week 69 - 116.2
Week 70 - 116.2
Week 71 - 116.6
Week 72 - 116.8 (earned another bead for my bracelet!)
Week 73 - 116.2
Week 74 - 117.4
Yes, I blew it on the last week! Oh well...as we talk alot about in our Weight Watchers meetings, I'm "owning" that number. I'm owning why it is what it is. I over-ate. I took in more calories than I burned off.
I'm thankful that the "freaking out" is becoming less and less over time and the common sense, logical approach is growing stronger. I believe the "freak out" reaction is much more likely to lead to blowing it more and more and worse and worse.
If I let myself believe that "I'm losing it!!! I'm gonna gain all the weight back!!!!! I can't do this!!! I'm destined to be fat and unhappy!!!!" (that's what a freak out looks like written down) then a part of me gives up and gives in.
But the common sense, logical part says "yes, that number is higher because you ate out twice on Saturday and twice on Sunday and had 4 pieces of turtle cake in as many days and cookies from your neighbor and cookies from your mom and weren't careful enough when you had the opportunity...but now you're going to be careful and track and do what you know to do and the number will come back down to the good range and you'll keep doing that as long as you live". Ahhh...isn't that so much better?!
And for the record, I didn't start tracking after the "treat weekend" but before...just because I was in the mood to track again. I tracked the extra food...I used up all the activity points I'd earned so far for the week and also dipped into the 49 extra points I'm allowed each week. It was a nice feeling to earn more activity points and add back to the 49. I don't like to use those at all.
Anyhow, that's the nutritional side of things. On the activity side...cooler weather is here... boooo hooooo!! I know, I know...all my runner friends reading this are saying "YAY!" but I'm truly a warm and hot weather runner and I don't like the cold at all...AT ALL.
I can't stand leaving the house and being so cold for the first mile or so til I warm up some. And I don't like getting sweaty and then I turn the corner and the wind blows and then I'm chilled because now I'm wet AND cold.
But I don't like the treadmill either! I have an idea to just walk and not run on the uncomfortably cold days (anything in the 50's and below!) so that I can dress warmer and not get too hot while walking. Thankfully, we have lots of warmer, sunnier days on a regular basis through our winter months and I should be able to still run regularly enough to maintain fitness until the nice heat of summer arrives again = )
If I walk the amount that earns me the same points I would earn for what I would normally run, I'm hoping that it won't matter to my ability to maintain my weight. So I can earn 4 points for a 3 mile run in 30 minutes but to earn 4 points walking, I need to walk over four miles and 68 minutes.
I'm just a little concerned that walking the equal points value won't have the same effect on my calorie-burn as running does even though they look equal on paper. I'll have to try it out and see...
And I'm either going to have to lose another pound or two to compensate for the extra clothes I'll be wearing at weigh-in through the colder months or I'm going to have to be ok with 117's and 118's.
Yes, I know how ridiculous that sounds but I'm owning that too!! Keeping that close track of my weight is what works for ME. It may sound lame to the entire rest of the world but it works for me and I'm gonna keep on doing it!
