...not THAT wagon!! And not the weight wagon either! The blogging wagon = ) I guess if you're going to fall off a wagon, that's just about the best one to pick...
Here's some catch up...pretty boring stuff...and that's an AWESOME thing!!
8/1 - Week #60 - 116.6
8/8 - Week #61 - 116.2
8/15 - Week #62 - 117.0
8/22 - Week #63 - 116.2
8/29 - Week #64 - 116.6
9/5 - Week #65 - 117.0
As you might be able to tell, I'm most happy with a weight in the 116's. If it's below that, I risk getting lectured by the weigh-in ladies. If it's 117 or above, I feel badly the rest of the day. I always weigh myself right before I leave the house and usually drink some or all of my shake on the way to boost my weight up.
Like yesterday, I weighed 115.6 after getting dressed and putting my shoes on. I'd already had part of my shake after my run so figured I could finish the rest of it and still be in the 116's. I have no idea how it made me gain 1.4 pounds though!
And even though I know I didn't REALLY weigh 117, I still feel really bad...really...that that's written in my permanent weight record.
And I know...I KNOW...117 is a perfectly acceptable and fine weight for someone my height, frame and age. It's really not 116-117 either...it's 112-113, clean weight. My head KNOWS this when I step on the scale at Weight Watchers...so why does it bother me so?? Because the weigh-in ladies will think I'm fat???
Aaarrrrrgggghhhh!!!! I can't explain it...it just really matters to me. I wish it didn't because I think it shows that I'm lacking in sense and/or logic. Oh well...we all have our own set of strengths and weaknesses and this is one of my more prominent weaknesses, I guess!
I need to call Weight Watchers headquarters and change my height that's on record with them. I always thought I was 5'4"...and maybe I was and have shrunk some as I've gotten older...but I got measured at the doctor's office a couple months ago and I'm definitely 5'3".
That means my lowest allowable weight goes from 117 to 113. So I could weigh in the 115's and even 114's and the ladies wouldn't lecture = ) I'm gonna go write that down on my to-do list for tomorrow...call Weight Watchers and change my height!
Anyhow, I've been wanting to share this link with ya'll...it's more information on what I've been talking about over the last couple of blog posts.
Is Being Really Lean Really Worth It?
One thing I really liked about the article is how she talks about finding your happy spot. We all are juggling these different areas of reaching and maintaining a healthy weight:
- nutrition...how much, of what, more of this, less of that
- activity/exercise - how much, of what, see above = )
- genetics - more muscular? big muscle, lean muscle? more curvy? more beanpole?
- level of stress - too little sleep? high-stress job? sickness? etc.
Just like I mentioned previously...I know I could weigh less than I do right now and have more muscle and less fat. I know that I would run faster, feel better (physically, mentally, emotionally), look better (my opinion!).
I also know what changes would be required in my diet and exercise. And I know how my genetic make-up is trying to get me to look. I've decided that the sacrifices in my nutrition and time are not worth weighing 5-8 pounds less.
So I've decided that 112-113 is my happy spot...mostly...seriously, it NEEDS to be my happy spot...
- My nutrition is good...cutting out any more "fun" foods would be WAY less fun.
- And my Nike+ app tells me that I spent 33 hours running last month...140 miles! I don't feel right taking time away from something else to add to the running time-budget.
- I already am WELL aware of my genetics and how my genes are working hard to get me to look...that makes this tough work!
- from the outside looking in, my life would appear to be stress-free. Soooo not true... but I won't get into that right now...
I keep going back to my original goal...it was NOT to weigh 105 and have 15% body fat and run sub-8:00 miles again...but that would be AWESOME...nooooo, don't go there Pony!!
My goal was and is to maintain a weight that is healthy and maintainable long-term with no great fluctuations (20+ pounds) through the seasons. I must force myself to focus on that.
Ok, I really do think I've said all I can say about that!! I know, I know...I said that the last time! hahahahahaha
We'll see = )
